thanks 4.6.20

every time i wake up and say

today is gonna be a good day

it is always the fucking worst day

thanks god you have a really

dark sense of humor

i try my best to be optimistic

and you say to your bros

"hold my beer"

this guy needs to get fucked with

well the joke is on everyone

this time

2020 was gonna be my year

after years of treading water

and trying to find my motivation

i was gonna try to will this year

into being something

i could point to as a turning point

the year everything changes

and once again i say

thanks god

i didn't see that one coming

you found another way

to fuck us over

we must not have given you enough money

or touched enough little kids

we know that's what gets you off

you just had to piss

on the optimism of the new decade

with the biggest health crisis

humanity has seen

in the last one hundred years

thanks so much

for cancelling everything

that i had to look forward to

everyday feels like a week

and time is grinding to a halt

and i am just so tired

of always being tired