Internal Screaming

I can't shut my brain off.

I can't stop it. I'm going off the rails. I've lost it.

All I can hear is screaming.

Grinding gears, the smell of smoke. Something's burning and I think it's me.

Hands are shaking.

Oil's leaking from my mouth. Or maybe it's blood. Or brain matter. It's hard to tell at this point.

It aches deep inside. Behind my eyes, between my ears, above my neck.

All the pills in the world can't shut it up.

Stop it. Stop it. I need quiet. For once in my life. I crave silence.

I can't get any rest.

Nightmares. Waking up in a cold sweat.

Alone again. It's too loud. I can't quite drown it out. No matter how hard I try.

I can't tell if I'm screaming or crying.

Maybe both. Maybe neither.

Where's the off switch.

I think it's broken.